July 14, 2024

Today was not my kind of a day as I was constantly on my ass all the time doing sweet nothing I tried to get someone to get me to go somewhere particularly the recycling centre to just get my mind off being bored, but that being said it wasn’t gonna be that easy so who is this snob was going to make sure that this was not gonna be possible for me in the long run !   That was when I wanted to lose my cool, but I just said “it sucks“ that being said it did suck having a whole week on my own ass doing nothing as a wonder I did not have muscular atrophy or having to go through physiotherapy to gain my strength back Said that’s why I don’t like Being honest with you is kind of annoying and it’s very aggravating to go around mopping all day because you’re bored!

So out of boredom, I found this picture on Facebook that looked interesting the other day and I thought of doing something with it creating a different sky of fake sky if you want because I was so bored I was even gonna pay for being bored if it was gonna be that bad, but that was besides the point, luckily I did not have to pay to be bored! I ended up changing it on the same app. This being said this is what I did. This is the original picture I did with which was over and a shock. I find Arctic culture very interesting as there’s a lot of shamanism That is resonating with my own shamanism, which would be Siberian Romanism that being said, I find it very interesting to go and see different stone cairns! To be honest with you, I ended up making one for a friend that died the other year! Because he deserved his dues, I thought he deserved some kind of respect for being on this planet at least that being said I ended up creating a nice Kyron for him. That was very interesting but the Kyron or Tyron as it’s called wait about 200 or 400 pounds in the wheelbarrow. I was lucky enough to look at where I wanted it to be That it was very interesting to me whose not even 3:4500 pounds is able to log that amount weight without letting off any curse words although at the end there was some curse words trying to balance the dang stones. Some of them were so stubborn, not wanting To be balanced or locked and sometimes it’s very aggravating that you’re dealing with that sometimes they don’t want to go in the right direction that you want them to!

To be honest with you, I do a lot of the first one I did was for my mother because he had passed away about two years ago and six days that being said, it was not a very easy time for me to go and deal with her issues cause I had a shit head of a brother who was more or less a pain in my ass since childhood this brother I’m not gonna mention his name, but was a royal pain in my ass to begin with And then that was when that was done I was gonna do more shook like things or cairns that would be a lot better then going to some stupid celebration of life that I think constipates the brain more than anything else in the whole entire entire world is a celebration of life. Something that I don’t believe in to be honest with you I never was a funeral girl. I was more of an artsy person still to this day honestly, I don’t think we should be having funerals. It depends on the person they want them. I certainly wouldn’t want one when I decided to make my leave, but anyways that being said sorry to be more but that’s basically why I do. It’s a way of saying no I’m not doing anymore. Funerals are going to more funerals. I have yet to do one for my father who just last year ended up going to Spirit, his body was firing on all cylinders, but his brain was not i.e. dementia….. That thing is very demonic to be honest with you is dementia. It’s very demonic and I would suggest that you wouldn’t drink alcohol unless you wanna have that kind of if you with your brain it’s where the brain will hard and dry up Fried if you will, that being said, it’s very creepy that your brain can modify itself if you abuse it too much the modification of a brain I did not think could be possible because of the Egyptian saying so, but it only happens in life dementia!

 I was horrified about the idea of my father having the man not because I was gonna end up having it because I don’t think I would because I have never drank a drop of liquid shit AKA alcohol once in my life, that being said as a Polan star trial, I have had a lot of trauma in my life childhood and otherwise the latest was because of my brother and of course my mother‘s passing is very interesting and stuff like that, but I just rather see the good in the world instead of the bad, but as I said, you’re not always given that choice sometimes I was never given that choice at some point until now to see the good in the world! That being said, I doing artwork and other things is a lot more interesting instead of going to funerals or celebrations of life that really cause more damage for mental health than anything else! I would not be going through therapy if it weren’t for this western view of headstones and celebrations of life. I probably would’ve been screwed over just by my brother instead of just by the Grim Reaper as well if it weren’t for funerals and headstones these western ideas I find I’m sorry to say can be damaging. I find when a cairn could do the trick easily to mark the persons passing or mark the person‘s body I find with shamanism you don’t need very much except nature and a little bit simplicity. At least with nature you can express your spirituality, but you can also find a way to be able to explore the spiritual world without dying I e, Shaman, I’ve been a shaman for the better part of my life. It’s not the whole part of my life. I just started practising it just very recently after my grandmother’s death I think your appointed one, your baby and one of the things that you’ve gone through traumatic and life altering, as well as death experiences, which I have been going for the most part of my life!

The Kyra and I made looks like a tortoise that has a load on its back load meaning stuff on his back, not as in shit that being said very interesting that I tried to create an alar like saying, but it didn’t go over well because the stones weren’t shaped right, so I ended up with a tortoise And truck like saying instead of a funeral cairn!

That being said you can find that anywhere you want is ideas for Kyren that being said at Kyran is as I said usually way in my culture central regions in the Siberians as well as the Himalayan people will say that this is the way you mark someone’s passing or someone’s grave in case someone’s passing Cases, I cannot go to funerals !

About being in shamanism where you wanna pronounce it You have been drawn to the north star as well as the consolations surrounding the north star for a long time since you were a young child if not more so I am out of the Polan star system. I did not know until I realize damn I Northstar all the time!  And I have been able to commune with a lot of things that people would say are not real like ghost their dad and people that have not been around for a long time as well as I am able to since bad people a mile away usually I didn’t find out there’s someone is a shithead from looking at them, not trying to judge a book by his cover, but just saying that it is the way it is sometimes Sometimes you just demeanour and stuff or online and you know it’s kind of bad to be around them and not healthy….. That being said, I’ve been able to find ways of noting the bad people, but also the good people as well now it’s my turn to try. Learn to find the good people in the world instead of just the assholes that caused problems and stuff.