So I have been busy for the past while trying to figure out what to do with my life since my boyfriend cheated on me! That was the sore spot for the month as I didn’t want to think about it! Apparently he was dating someone else will dating me something that I think is a major sin because this has happened to me before I went into ‘In reallife ‘ relationships which was worse for me then to deal with it online as I was in reality with this asshole! The beautiful thing about online dating is that we can be able to delete blocked the person right away if they are a scammer or an asshole! But not so much in reallife!As you have to deal with the person almost on a daily basis that being said, I was not very excited to go and deal with him constantly going to baseball and having him on baseball was supposed to be a stress relief in the first place would be becoming stressful to the point where it wasn’t more for me! So I decided to give the special Olympics a break A painful but important decision for me to deal with. It wasn’t too painful, but it was enough to sting me, but it was a pain in my butt to deal with this right now in my life so I am deciding now I’m not gonna deal with it cause it’s not worth going to jail over!
I’ve had a bad deal with where I ended up saying or doing something stupid in the first place and starting fights and stuff like that you was online and I was able to block before they could retaliate but in this case, I cannot do this in real life so I have that real idea of not going back for a long time! It had to be To be done as I could not have the same incident when I was in grade8 the same incident where I ended up putting someone in a coma because they were being a jerk to me. I couldn’t have the same as an adult because they would be hard to shake off as an adult at least when I was a kid when I was 18 it was wiped from everything from everything! Let’s just say I was most newagey person that I was before! From 2003 to 2017 I was a fucking hot head! I was never real satisfied with anything! Call it PTSD or call it the fact that I was an angry jerk my self when I was 14 until I was 28 - 29! I don’t like cheaters and I certainly hate being lied to directly or indirectly it is a major sin in my eyes! Over the case of my 35 years on this planet I told about 2 or 3 lies in my life!
Siri can see why I have to keep myself busy so I can actually help myself get better from this. Also, it’s very interesting that someone would be a jerk. I’ve been also trying to do a graphic novel with more success previous attempts because someone that I know gave me an apple pen and I was able to electronic watercolors. I will show you some of those soon but they’re very interesting. Indeed also, I was able to, start a play. I was reading Romeo and Juliet wanted to write my own place similar to it but not the whole thing. It is modern day. Japan is very interesting. There is this snap of the first scene of my play. I hope you can understand it as much as I do I haven’t done playwriting since I was in grade 9 when I was in drama class for high school!
Here it is …..the first scene:
Mireiko I want to be with you Satoshi, some where more modern where will we not be judged for our love! We can only see eachother in the dojo or in the forest, here I find!
Satoshi would you like to be with me in Osaka, there were willnkt be judged for our love! Though I have been here most my life I want just to be with you!
Mireiko (crying). I would like too as well! (Satoshi kisses her and tries to reassure her about everything)
Satoshi (holding her in the moon light of the full moon). We will figure it all out......(enter Kurai, with a samurai sword)
Minion 1 look at the love birds. (Laughing)
Minion 2 (also laughing) disgusts me to see that! (Pulling Mireiko from the arms of her sensei and minion 3 holding her)
Kurai ( raising the samurai sword above her head) you know that being with your pupil isn't allowed in this village! In fact this is taboo to be with your sensei. Satoshi we thought better of you!
Satoshi (pleading for mercy) I just love her I don't want to die......
Mireiko is crying in the background pleading for his life! Kurai strikes Satoshi with the samurai sword and cutting him in the sholdier deeply! The yakuza crime family left satoshi left for dead with the samurai sword!
As Satoshi lies there in a pool of his blood Mireiko comes to him
Mireiko Please don't die.....I don't know what to do in this village with out you! (Sobbing). I cannot go with out you please stay with me. (Satoshi kisses her sweetly on the lips and then dies in her arms). Please don't (she takes the samurai sword but before she can hurt her self she was caught by a friend and soon she was saved)
Kurai (laughing) thank go we got rid of that jerk! I hope that we can keep things the way in this village! I don't like taboo love between those too! It was disgusting to me! Kissing and all that!
Minion 2. Maybe we should hold a gambling session!
Minion 4 at least with you him!
The whole yakuza organization as small as it was .....was laughing and gambling as if the did not kill any one
-End scene!
As I wanted to write a play or screen play for fun! And for other people to read and understand easily! It was the death scene of the sensei who was killed by the yakuza and his student/ lover was there to see it happen! I don’t know how the play will turn out in the end but it is called fullmoon! Literally I was reading Romeo Nan’s Juliet for a readathon that I was doing yesterday! As I was going throught the book carefully it made want to explore screen writing! But I am a green horn at that still so it was just 500 pages thus far! I hope to write more!
Also I was busy writing for the wattpad watt’ys under the name e.m. tarantino and I write 8 books for it since April- actually since I started my therapy sessions! What happened was that I was talking about my asshole relatives and decided after telling or spewing it at the therapist that I was going to write a memoir or two then it turned to three! Let’s just say that 34 years wasn’t enough for what I had to go through 35 years was a lot in my life and was very eventful! As I wanted to help people who also PTSD warriors to ……it is good to not feel alone in this shit world! Then I ended up writing 8 other book that soon were destined for the actually contest alone!
Let’s say that watty’s were an important bucket list item that I wanted to keep repeating on! As I was wanting to write for this contest since 2020! Four or five years I finally go in to the contest…I am I am happy with 8 books …..that is 8 books for the watty’s! Believe it or not! It is very interesting to do a series of books and see where the series will go from one theme to the other. It’s very interesting indeed I found this to be my pet project of the year. Also, I’ve been riding a lot because I cannot spend money at this time as I’ve been trying to save for a city project. I know that sounds a little weird but a city project hasn’t to go into a city go for a concert and enjoy the city for 24 some odd hours and then go back home. ….. it was important as well as I tattoo after the city project as I call it! Let’s just say I made a promise to my friends that I felt like spending money and not needing something that I was going to go and write instead it was a very good diversion. Still worked. I find that the diversion worked as I found that I had nearly 300 dollars in My city fund! Is interesting to go for a concert but I don’t know which artist to see as I was Never at a concert before! There was one time that I was close when I was 32…..but things got aggravating for me then and I couldn’t go! The desire was to go to a concert but this did not work out the first time but I will go from there and get back on the concert train again!
I am hoping to go see a Billie eilish concert or an indie rock concerts!
As for the the graphic novel! I am doing a graphic novel about a female werewolf! Who goes and fights for good! As I was interested in doing my own graphic novel! -long story! Also I wanted to do water colours since I started art at 4 years old! I was going to do water colour but I couldn’t find my water colours! So I found a feature on an app that I already use for the other things but I was using for the graphic novel!
Here is a pictures of a panel of my graphic novel
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