September 11, 2024 l early a.m.

So I have been reading a book on Libby called decade of fear and I just can’t believe how stupid some human beings can be to one another. I’ll give you the actual description of the book. It’ll blow your mind how stupid human human being are like wasps going after people when they been drunk off beer or if they been here garbage can too much. This is the same thing with people here we go!  

This is the description of the book. It’s a good book, but it is very aggravating to read about how many people do stupid stuff to each other since a certain day and September I’m not gonna mention that day, but you can imagine that people are pretty stupid like flies that have been around or better bees Hang around our garbage can and torment human beings. I think this is what better describe some people and well here we go with the description of the book!

Decade of Fear is a darkly entertaining journey through the complicated, often bizarre world of national security since 9/11. On that night, Toronto Star journalist Michelle Shephard watched the remains of New York’s World Trade Center fall from the sky, wondering what much of the world was asking: “Why?” So began a ten-year search for answers that took her through the streets of Mogadishu and Karachi, into the mountains of Waziristan and behind the wire of Guantanamo Bay two dozen times.

Shephard conducted hundreds of interviews worldwide, and with sharp insight and an appreciation for the absurd, she weaves together stories of warlords, presidents, spies, grieving widows and global terrorists, to describe the historic decade where often the West’s “solutions” for terrorism only served to exacerbate the problem. She cruises with former CIA bosses, runs alongside protestors in the streets of Sanaa to escape fire from Yemen’s security services during experience the Arab Spring, meets victims of terrorism who leave her devastated, and earns enough stamps on her Gitmo Starbucks card for a free latte. Gripping, heartbreaking and infuriating, Decade of Fear broadens our understanding of a decade that was all too often described through panicked rhetoric

That being said, it is a very good book to read. I find it was very interesting to read, but it was very embarrassing to read at the same time as the idea of being human being with these idiots who torture other people is very embarrassing for me to say the least that I’m in the same race as these idiots…….the human race!   

 

I’m not gonna say very much about that as I don’t wanna spoil my morning with the three stooges, the people that have been mean to other people to put it politely! I’m hoping I’m gonna go swimming today yes, I have gone swimming plenty of time since I’ve been on this blog. I’ve been swimming to despite the three stooges as I called these idiots who do these things to other human beings because well I am someone who is a fighter!  And the only f you to PTSD will be to face your triggers. Mine happens to be water. I can’t stand water being in it unless I am taking a shower then I know I’m safe, but even after that, the beginning of the shower is a pain in the ass for me! With the cold water so I think a few years ago I wanted to go back into swimming but never got around to it because of the damn condition condition I have which is PTSD so I ended up deciding one day when they asked me if I wanted to go swimming I said I’m gonna fucking swim! Let me tell you that feeling in life and not have to worry about bullshit like flashbacks or being triggered. Said it was the complete opposite. I float in the water. Yes, I do float in the water, it is very peaceful and such I find that I can just go around, but there’s other human beings that are in the pool that wouldn’t exactly like My had to be in the way of their swimming, but I still  like floating!   Now, as far as that book was concerned, here is what I had to write about the book on Goodreads as well as on Fable. I don’t want to flip-flop between this book and swimming and something peaceful and something aggravating, but I have to tell you what I said about the book!

After reading her books, I found that I am embarrassed to be a human! I can’t believe we do such stupid stuff to each other horrible things to each other as well. This is very embarrassing if you’re human, but is very important if you read it as well!

That being said let’s go back to swimming. I have never gone swimming since I was about 17 years old when my onset of PTSD started to kick in and I just decided to hell with swimming, but really I ended up enjoying swimming again when I went back a few months ago to enjoy a good swim. There might be the chance that I might have to go and not swim again because of a tattoo that I’m gonna get which is very obvious part of the tattoo after care I’m hoping to get a melting yin Yang! That being said, I have mentioned this many times before about this particular tattoo, but I cannot go swimming for a few weeks after that tattoo cause I despise getting infections and things that I have worked hard for last time I had infection and I’m sorry to say this was when I was trying to do my own medusa piercing, and that did not turn out very well Both emotionally and physically as I ended up with a wheezy bit of a staff infection I think it was staff having antibiotics pierced piercings, and stuff like that. It was kind of ass and I to be honest with you. I just don’t like germs, but I find them fascinating when I read them in books or magazines they’re interesting then but if you’re dealing with them  as an infection It can be a pain in the ass to be honest with you and I have said that with the damn Medusa piercing that being said I’m not gonna live myself down on that one because it is very important that I go to a professional now whether be tattoos or piercings I just decided to go to Professional, it  decreases the likelihood of

Of these little bastards called germs getting into skin and ruining everything!

That being said, I used to read a lot of science books not just astronomy books where I would be reading books about different microbial life. It was very interesting to read about the different viruses and bacteria. I still find that very interesting but I also find this very interesting as I’m paid to do this to kill the little bastards that cause infections and disease that being said that would be too clean and I enjoy cleaning very much. It’s a very good mindfulness activity and very meditative and your mind to be calmer in the moment just dealing with shit that you have to deal with on a daily basis. At least when you clean you are able to go and feel at peace it’s kinda like what Daniel , LaRusso mentions about the idea of peace with karate. You have to do the chores in order to get the movements and the balance you need in life. It’s similar to that kind of aspect also is my only workout I have because I can’t stand going to the gym or dealing with people that may trigger me or may not they’ve been a pain in my ass. Some people have been I’ve been said I’d rather not talk about that particular thing, but you know what I mean that the People  Rub you the wrong way, so not to be bothered with people who are gonna be annoying !

Now I must say that not all people are horrible humans that will cause you great pain or great suffering or even great annoying. Some people are actually good. I’ve met some good people in my life that I’d rather see over and over again. I eat my boyfriend, even though I have crashed him and stuff like that that being said, Most people are not like dumb and dumber the bees that go after you if you go near the garbage can at the carnival or anything like that, but they do annoy from time to time, but there are some good people must tell you that the thing about being a polarian starseed, Is and this is not an excuse for any shitty behaviour is that when or if you have been traumatized in this life and you are a star seat of my caliber, you will end up having a strong version to human beings or should I say the scientific term humans!   But I have to admit if you are a Polarian starseed fear not as most people are good! And not idiots!