So you are wondering who I meet my boy friend!
Here it is
Hello my name is Lisa Edo! I am a Tommy boy, punk rocker, and a PTSD warrior! I would say that I suffer from PTSD, well that is dependent on your perspective on life! I would rather see the full glass of air and water instead of half full nor half empty! I am Eurasian and I am an artist and author.... I also like to work with crystals and stargaze, as well another nature based hobbies! I was 34, when I met James Creed at his house at a game of corn hole, the bean bag game! Not the dirty thoughts that might be going through your head! So stop it! I have had shit relationships before, but that is not why I have PTSD! I had PTSD from being born in a war zone and there was other bullshit in my life....but I rather think that I am a warrior, instead of a survivor nor a sufferer! I also have an iq of 196, as well Asperger's and ADHD! I don't suffer from those either as I find things happen for the Wierdest reasons! It is what I was told by a friend then the universe has something planned for everyone!
A little bit about my history was that seeing the 9/11 attacks woke up memories and other stuff when I was twelve years old and suffered from my first depression at age 17. That was a female dog of sorts as I did not know what my brain was doing and I still don't know what that brilliant but annoying brain is doing! I find that my life is a collection of emotions and such! But I alway sooner or later find my balance again! I was adopted to Canada and became a Canadian citizen at age 2! I was raised catholic, but subscribe to Siberian shamanism and I still believe in a god. Why just look at the Big Dipper, someone had to create that kind of perfection in it simplicity!
I am for ever at the tattoo parlour: getting tattoos and piercings- the piercing not as much as the tattoos as I don't want to hide my face in metal! That is for foot ball helmets! I am know 35, going on 36! Some of my biggest accomplishments is not my tattoos or piercings, but the length of my continuing life and my relationship with James! Truth be told, I was looking for love in the shittiest of places ie, Facebook dating and pof (plent of fish or plenty of fuckers as I call it!)! And I never found anything but perverts on those. But when I was just playing corn hole for the special Olympics I found my companion, James, in reality not online! Little did I know that would lead to something as precious as a star sapphire..... no joke as I looked them up on Amazon and they are $1000, my love for James is priceless! And I am happy to have the right guy in my life, regardless of him being then 63, to now 64! To me age is a stupid number once you hit age 25! I live in a group home because of PTSD something I like to call the piss off, as PTSD tends to piss you off!
As for the siberian shamanism I am over Turkic decent and one thing I love to do is throat sing, as well as play the jaw harp and the guitar and ukulele. I did that the guitar is a very good form of therapy that I am proud of using! But I also like doing art and photography! I find that I also like idea of modeling but I keep my clothes on as I don't believe in running around in you birthday suit! The only time I show any skin is to show a new tattoo!
Now when I first met James creed I feel in love we were playing a game of cornhole where you again, through the bean bag in the hole! That being said we did more talking and laughing then playing the dang game of cornhole! I found that he was easy to talk to and be with! That being said the next time we would meet we would be going to lunch and having a good time! I find that I found someone that was similar to me and that is very rare! A lot of people scientists think that no two people are a like, that might be physically but as far as soul mates and twin flame there is someone exactly like you waiting for you! I must say that forensics is full of bull on the two people not being the same .....there is someone like you looking for you!
I tried to find that person who was like me and it became a paranoid idea for me to do online dating for the longest time also 15 years as I was not aware that adults met in real life! That being said I thought that the person like me would be online.......big mistake there!
Though we do share the same religious beliefs or interests that being said who cares in that department as I was happy to find not only a match but also some one willing to overlook my PTSD as a negative!
That night we met we found that I could not sleep, it wasn't because of caffeine but because of the idea that I might have found someone! And that possibility when I went to the lunch date.....it took all I had not to kiss him! I wanted to show my effection for him! That being said I decided to strike first, strike hard and write a little love note to him stating my feelings and that made is day as well as mine as well when I got the message that he got my letter! Sometimes strike first and strike hard is not bad thing as the karate kid movies made it out to be! Strike first , strike hard is not exactly a bad philosophy! I know it gives people confidence in themselves! That is how I also got the nerves to enter ten books in the wattpad Watty's! Yes I did that do with the same strike first strike hard philosophy!
The is one difference with james and I it is that I am tattooed and pierced and I he isn't! Again I don't care about looks that is just a bonus! He happens to be a find human being too!
I love the idea that he holds me and that I feel safer than I do at the airport and that I feel something war and fuzzy with him! And only him!
No, I had dated before in high school but the guy then couldn't have the nerve to tell me his feelings for me, and he would date every freaking girl in the high school before growing a pair and tell me how he felt! Even at that it look me a friend to tell me what was on his mind! I was flabbergasted at the thought that he couldn't tell me! My it is because of the Turkic and Chechen in me that makes me seem frightening which isn't the case....but it was for him! I remember being in a high school relationship and that I was being cheated on as I was too powerful a person for the high school boyfriend to deal with! This would set the tone for my online dating life which was like a warzone at best! Yes I said that online dating was as bad as being in a warzone and for good reason as I was scammed by some annoying little creature that I still wish to get back at! That being said I will not talk about that again!
Let's say that online dating his like a hot agent, ebola for example and that you should avoid it at all costs! Even if the sites said 90% success rate.....that being said, that is a big scam too! Real life relationships are the best and time honoured!
The fact that I keep bumping into James Creed was enough for me to thinking that something is in the stars! You can call it fate, or the universe doing its magic but I think it is in the stars! Something's even though I just meet James seemed to be cosmic to me! The idea that we met once before at a Christmas things was enough that I was interested in what might be happening in the cosmos! It is kinda of strange.....a good show about god's plan for us is the show dead like me! That might talk about death but it also talks about life in general!
To be honest the show talks about fate and how mysterious is it, that is why I liked dead like me and that I had an upbeat view on everything.
I guess the same with death, life is equally as mysterious as I find that life tends to give you what you want when it decided you can have it! That being said it is the same about life! Life will tell you when you are ready!
Of course this is the fictional version of the conception of the relationship that being I am turning it in to a novel for wattpad orginals that I was I am doing! Yes it is an age gap relationship! Something that is not really smiled upon as many people thing that age gap relationships will not last the first year! That being said, James and I are going on two years with our relationship! He is a kind a pond gentle person…..he is my twin flame and probably my soulmate! That is what I think! Here is the description for the novel in the stars
𝓝𝓸𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓰𝓪𝓹 𝓻𝓮𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓹 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓫𝓪𝓭
Some time things just happens for a reason as so people find out in life! When I goes to Lisa and James the some who keep getting back together for some odd reason! Ass is it was writen in the stars. Who,e their love is tested by the past. Their love is obviously stronger than what happened in the past!
This is not just a love Story but the story of someone fighting for a relationship and also to restore their mental peace and balance! So how did they meet and the trials and tribulations that they experienced.
Based on true story that is continuing
That true story is me and James, pardon my grammar there! But I think that this is a story not just for people in my life but also a story for the ages! As thisis what it is about the story of love being stronger then the traumas of the past!
It is a fact that we met while playing cornhole which is a bean bag game where you throw the bean bag and hope it goes in the hole! It is not a dirt thing as some lowbrowed people think it is! I started playing it about 2- 3 years ago! That was fun now I am able to play it and get the bags in the hole multiple time! I did not play it this years as my head was so far up my ass this summer! I wish I did not have my head up the perverbial ass!
Also I am starting a podcast called we are not all axe murderers which talks about mental health! That being said not every one with a mental illness is a psychopath or sociopath, those are rare and terrible! That is why I don’t act out of line as I want to break that evil mold that society as put people with mental illness/disabilities in! We are not all fucking axe murderers.
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