August 9, 2024

When I woke up I was petrified as I had a colossal night mare!  I won’t tell you the nature of my night mare but it was pretty bad if I was paralyzed with fear! The idea of this was unknown to me as I was with nothing that was stressing me out except for the one person who would not stop talking to me!    To be honest I feel overwhelmed that I can’t go swimming as that everyone and their fucking dog will be there!  So I am taking a break!  

My behaviour hasn’t been the best of late science the fucking demon house and being reminded of it!   That being said if someone brings it up or the painter that cast us to that infernal place I am to ignore the person talking about it!  I found that I was over welhemed and morning are ususally to relaxing and I over slept and felt like there was not enough time to relax!  That being said!  I am learning the art of walking away and ignoring the person causing these feeling s in the first place!  It is hard but after a while it feels good to be ignoring and hear silence when he realizes that I am ignoring him!  Some taught me that yesterday!  That being said it feel good to have the upper hand!  Also what might not be helping me is the fact that I let things linger for to long and I get angry long of the shit show is over!  So I am trying to work on that!  When I think about this the ignoring of the aggravating person it feel also too good!  Like I should have done this a long time. As I was going to do some writing. This morning!  I have been writing this  book called the karate affair:

When a Japanese karate master sensei falls in love with a peasant girl!  Will their love be tested???

For most of her life, Mai-Lin was taught Japanese karate, by one Satoshi Ichi!   By the time she 20, she finds her self falling in love with Satoshi she is surprised that he feels the same  about her.  While in Vietnam, nothing will rival their love but when he goes back to japan, things change!  Will he love his long time student or will he seek someone else when he comes back to japan!

Will mai-Lin find another love? Or will he come back for her!

That is basically the idea of a bookm that I am writing!

I also am making more book covers thanks to Matter AI, I’ve been finding that I’ve been able to make more as you can see With the phases of the moon, the other is a rose with blood dripping off of it. The other one would be a flower or a rose actually to be exact with stars on it. It’s kind of interesting how this is gonna happen when you’re interested in Ai when you’re being lazy!  And need a quick book cover!  It is interesting  we’re a quick flick of the imagination and facebook Messenger can get you from boredom to enjoying Matata AI. I find that this is very interesting for me to do because I didn’t think of things and don’t have to spend hours at it. I enjoy doing this a lot and just seeing what it’ll come up with for example I don’t know what I might come up with later on with this.!  But it is fascinating for me to do this idea!  Usually, I’ve done ai art but with disappointment  when I decided to going to for the for meta ai I was going ti I enjoy this for there this for sure at his was interesting with the idea of ai art when you feel a lazy !    To be honest I decided to go swimming and I find the idea that it might be relaxing after I shit night like last night !  I don’t know what triggered it was beyound me !  I had it a good day yesterday!   I was on a boat ride that idea!  If being around water it is has spiritual energy that is powerful!

Water has a very spiritual energy. That is very powerful. I find I’ll write up a thing about that, but it is very interesting. How water can make you a calm and collected and feel better about things when I was on the boat ride yesterday I felt like I was going to fall asleep. It was very interesting to see Where are you can be stressed out for one second and then the next minute you can be almost falling asleep because of the idea of water. I find this very interesting in need and I would like to do another boat ride here if that is possible, but I don’t know that would be next year‘s problem Was kind of interesting to see that even though you’re not in the water yourself with a water sign it’s very interesting to be honest with you of being a good mindfulness and helping you with your anxiety it’s Interesting! I heard that water was able to help the spirits and other things that are very interesting. I might have a water sorry as I said I have a north node and Pisces and that being said it’s very interesting to see that water actually helps me calm down idea that water is spiritual calling is very interesting indeed for me and I’m able to, relax without having any problems when I’m on a boat I’ve had the same experience with a cruise ship when I was on a cruise as a water helps me a lot a lot of different things The idea that I’ve been calm down many times while water was very interesting. Also, when I go swimming with my friends at my place that I find that I can flow easily without being bothered. I am able to float and try to relax. It’s very interesting. I remember the Buddhist non-trying to float, and she trying to float and it was very interesting. Indeed I do the same thing for my mental health, but then I end up having dreams of these water nons as well or flashbacks of me being Asian country is kind of interesting to be honest with you certainly wasn’t Japan. It was another Asian country that was causing me to have these flashbacks when I go float in the water is kind of relaxing to be honest with you. 

August 8, 2024

These are the book covers that matter AI had helped me create met AI you use on your Facebook messenger and you and doing whatever you want like I said yesterday I ended up doing what about the dark triad the one about the light mention that as well, or may have not met anyways these were designed by meta-AI at least the artwork for the Covers were more or less ready for publishing because of matter ai I just said show me a picture of a flower with Fantasy element whether there be stars or whatever I would come up with these elements of like a crystal flower for example or something to that effect is very interesting indeed to see what kind of thing this could lead to soon I’m going with bar I want to watch not as entertaining as I thought I would be but then again the flowers are pretty interesting these are the many flowers I use the same title is being used the elements and the garden series season nine I think is very interesting. I might be writing more about that but anything else later on in the year or actually next year comes up as spring time time for the warttys  I guess it would be time for the Time  to whip out these book covers and see where I can go from there ! The water is a annual writing contest that is hosted by Wattpad is very interesting to see and actually be able to partake in it this year I was able to partake in it and given it books yes 10 bucks I have mentioned that was before up going to the demon house for a week and now I have a lot of different ideas for my writing stuff it’s very interesting. The one thing that I found was that it helped me broad my horizons, even though I could’ve been demonically possessed by whatever was in that house whether big hero Hito or something to that effect I just thought it was I’d rather take positive and not be  possess and have fortitude that to be able to take it and use it as a creative means instead of just So oh always be happy being as acceptable as hell to demonic possession not being sad. I did not like the idea that people can be feeling sorry for yourself. That is the first step to being  possessed, I know some people might say there is dissociate trans disorder, which is on steroids that I’m not gonna credit as some people have had that but then I get there is evil out there!

These were very close to real flowers. I found that interesting that I would be creating them with the matter AI, which was very interesting. The matter AI is actually quite entertaining. A friend had brought this up to me one time, indirectly, talking to another friend that being said she said well, she uses it for planning she uses it for this uses it for that and then she just loves it, and I felt that I pushed the envelope and decided to say show me a picture of a flower with such such a trace so that was very interesting indeed, and then I ended up going to make more AI flowers if you would it was very interesting that I said these look good and look like the beginning of a series book that being said it was very interesting. I’ve been told I should do more series on my different. Oh, let’s say writing I said, do a series of short novels, as if I have already done that this time on the wall, but the next time , be prepared so I don’t have to worry about it afterwards that being said it is very interesting to go do this project that I might have I have other projects that I might have on the go, but it is very interesting to see the different flowers that these flowers are very interesting for me because I was able to create them from my mind other than my mouth and tell the matter AI what I wanted to see, and that was very interesting indeed for me and I kept going and going until I was satisfied with what I saw. It was very interesting and being these early book covers I think they might be a vampire series. I don’t know not academia as the dark academia is pretty bad somebody and not a good way I found that there is two types of dirt. There is a card you can read there is for smart but dirty and then there’s a shit that you have to clean up from cleaning up , like actual dirt and some things like dark academia I find more dirt on the ground to sweep it up, mopping up and be done with that not ever again. That being said I don’t like dark academia after I watched read with Ray and I was like OK that was just the worst book I ever heard of!

But really I like the idea of vampire answers not trying to take away from twilight series I’d never really like the twilight series so I found something all the way better than that. That would be interesting. Indeed would be very interesting to see where the vampires would go where that’s where the guard is is a of the vampires elements elementals I wanna have to look that up is the elementals they’re kinda like experience but they’re not exactly spirits. They’re very in need and I find that the idea of creating something that might be not from your hand is very interesting indeed I found that this is what I like to do sometimes what I feel lazy and I cannot look  up something or come up with something in my head I just go with the flow and use AI. I know that sounds pretty bad but yes it’s not as bad as you think it’s very interesting indeed. !   The thing I will use for the idea of AI writing where the robot would write for you and you were just sit back and watch the crappy riding up here that being said I would not wanna go to that extent I just do this with some of my artwork, but anyway, it is very interesting to see this. I thought you might be interested in seeing these very interesting indeed to, go about your life and see what you can create Edward Spark the idea that I was using the AI help spark my creativity and my interest I was thinking about doing paranormal fantasy romance, more paranormal and romance and fantasy being said I’m not Sarah J Maas, who is very interested in  Fantasy as much as I like reading crescent city I find that for someone else to write I like to be a little bit more realistic why it comes to my writing !

The flowers are supposed to give this idea that it’s very interesting. I remember reading about blue Dahlia, which was like about ghosts and stuff remember correctly. This is kind of written in the same will be written in the same spirit Blue by Nora Roberts I believe it is I can’t really say what Nora Roberts is like. I’ve only read one of her books which was about a Diamond! The diamond one was very interesting even though I cannot stand in the stone myself. The stone I find is very upgrading emotionally as well as being a light worker, and someone was not a little. I thought that diamonds are not your best friend friend they cause more problems of amplifier emotions, and other shit like that will really fuck your day up. If you know what I mean, I would not suggest going to buy diamond for your loved one or for yourself because you never know what they might be suffering From, that being said, I don’t believe in diamonds I think they are just the recipe for disaster and a recipe for everything else wrong. This is the new version of what I believe. It is her not a girl best friend as last year and get ready for this fucker tail. I thought I saw someone doing NSFW stuff on the street while I was waiting for a friend  to go get a meal that being said I was seeing someone do very inappropriate things like NSFWNSL kind of things which was kind of disturbing to be at honest with you and I had to tell what it was. My brain was farting if you would because of the actual  diamond it was amplifier to the point where I always wanted the psychosis I would not suggest unless you want the hospital in my opinion end up in the hospital, laying it out and going to wear diamonds for your health as a light worker and someone else who has metal health issues I find that  are not really the best friend to have around with you !

The idea of diary really bad to be pretty hard to be used as a healing so instead, I find that they have beenBig glory for because of big moneh big money is not goodis not good for the soul and the diamond I find as a testament to the idea of that that does because it charge it’s not bold just because it shines it doesn’t heal and sometimes it just antagonizes the hand. I fart that I can’t wear white crystals except for clear core no white sapphires or anything like that as that if FedEx like I read and it looks like a diamond, but I afraid it’s gonna act like a diamond and things and I’ll get angry or whatever and not behave the way I wanna behave that’s why I had to get rid of some family heirlooms at a garage sale last year and I had to do that. I didn’t wanna part with her but I thought the negative energy from the diamonds were too much for my little brain to deal with , that being said, I did not wanna deal with the guy again. I’m sorry that they were family or heirlooms and that they were going to notice someone else, but I had to do something that was going well-being and I said this could be because of my polarized thinking and stuff like that, but it’s just so that you can imagine that last year I was writing up a storm too because of the situation that had that I had with the guy doing SFW stuff and really I mean come off the pod  cannot do appropriate things if I don’t want to neither should you so I should do it in the first place I mean it’s just ridiculous 

And that is basically what I have to say about today is the idea that these book covers having created by me am sorry if I started if you are lover that I am not trying to discredit your feelings towards the stone I’m just that is not a good thing to have you have bad or mental health issues and the fact that you’re a light worker or an empath or a star seed the diamond will carry down luckily there’s not much seeds and such have you but we still exist so I don’t know why people are pushing except for fucking big money, which is kind of wrong to be honest with you I don’t think yeah should be store. She said we should have more other variety of stones that might actually help with other people people like me people like you who are star seeds and path clans and Lightworkers we might be able to be a lot better off. If there was an old divers some people gonna be hating me for this, but that’s basically the way things go with me. Is that if you decide where the diamond that’s are but also will be your behaviour that is gonna be shitty in the first place , and that diamonds are not always the best friend for anyone especially girls as we are more to be more emotional and sometimes loud at times I must admit that I get loud at times. I’ve always been loud person because I have a lot of energy ADHD as well Asperger PTSD that being said I find that a lot of things do bother me from time to time. For example yesterday we were going to go to a we were going to a boat ride which is for the boat ride was good stuff but going back. I ended up seeing the hospital where I told her my mother died.!

The idea of seeing the hospital where my mother died I was hard did not clear my enthusiasm. I know that place probably saved a lot of liars, but they did save the one that was important for me in the first place yeah idea that my mother had gone to the spirit I block you. I didn’t have a diamond since then, but it’s very disturbing. Be honest with you. That kind of thing would happen, you’d let someone bleed out because of too much blood thinners and let them die of the cancer as well and kind of sad to be honest with you. I just wish my mother’s voice could be heard about what had happened and the fact that there was the lack of an autopsy that’s what pisses me off the most of my mother being dead of course it was the exact opposite is like you’re not even gonna do a fucking autopsy , that is very aggravating for me because I need another person that needs to know what the fuck happened in the first place with whatever is precious in my life, my mother, even though he may have never seen certain things already to that matter I found that she was still a compassion and wonderful you would be that did not need to go this way  And the spirit and such a glory fashion. I don’t think anyone deserves that except for some people that they have caused my PTSD that I might decide to go after them with regards to my life I believe in karma as well. !

The idea of karma is the idea that the universal balance itself far and So is gonna be an asshole. Basically let them do it. Let Connor deal with it. I would or the police that the car is a better option because it’s more value for the police police can usually do very much about asshole and stupidity, but they can do all that. I mean I’ve heard so many people still howling for Justice staff for their loved ones had died as someone else’s had or that they whatever screwed over by the system my example would be that I had a charge my brother for assault my brother , Ryan and the fact that he did and they didn’t do anything about that still pisses me off this day and I found that maybe karma will take it good swag at this jerk and karma will balance everything out that being said I don’t know what karma has planned for him. I don’t wanna be activity because I’m not a negative person to be honest with you. I’m just trying to live day  by day and you see that in my blog or whatever whatever you see this will be white powder. Otherwise I find that is important. Just keep track if someone fucks it up for you that you should just believe and car is a lot easier than getting angry, calling the police starting up a shit show where  You’re the one that’s gonna be traumatized in the end I find this kind of thing is very important that you should not be letting new job Carla being a bitch that will punish you if you’ve done something wrong I will politely reward you if you died, right!

 

August 7, 2024

Sorry for not being able to write the past day, by meeting yesterday as I’ve been having a lot of problems with certain things one there is this one guy who won’t shut up about a place that I cannot stand to be honest with you. I wish he just be quiet, but I have to do my part and not blowing up out because that seems to be what he wants like a mien person he seems to like the idea of, getting his feed off of other peoples annoyances he’s been mentioning about this one place called the Perth house that we were in a few days ago or a few two weeks ago and it was not a very good time for me there because as I had mentioned there was a lot of demonic energy stuff that I had already mentioned in the first place, so he just kept bringing it up and bringing it up and has a light worker and someone who is a bit of a hothead. It was very hard not to lose my cool , today was the last so I was gonna lose my cool with him. I wasn’t gonna deal with this anymore and the more space that I will walking away if you will, if he starts talking about certain things that I know are triggering to me in the first place because I know he will wear if I get pissed off very easily is not a good strategy, but it is something that I have to do is to adjust. Ignore him at the time being I cannot say who this person is. He is a creature of  exceptional habit and I am pretty sure he is of the dark triad sometimes because he says he sorry but he doesn’t seem to follow through or his apologies which I’m pretty sure wouldn’t be dark. Try and write that in there. I’m not very happy about that saying that someone could be a dark triad, but it is what it is , I said the dark involves narcissism and psychopath. Those are what makes the person who has these traits so either acid dying or to the point where they’re gonna be dangerous. !

This is what I got from meta ai when I was doing a test on meta ai! To see if will be as entertaining as it will be!

The Dark Triad refers to a trio of personality traits that are considered to be malevolent and harmful to others. These traits are:

1. Narcissism: Characterized by grandiosity, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy towards others.

2. Machiavellianism: Marked by manipulation, cunning, and a willingness to do whatever it takes to achieve one's goals, even if it means harming others.

3. Psychopathy: Defined by a lack of empathy, impulsivity, and a tendency to engage in antisocial behavior.

People with Dark Triad traits often prioritize their own interests and desires over the well-being of others, and may engage in exploitative or harmful behavior to achieve their goals.

Here are some common characteristics associated with each trait:

Narcissism:

- Grandiose sense of self-importance

- Need for admiration and attention

- Lack of empathy towards others

- Sense of entitlement

- Arrogant and haughty behavior

Machiavellianism:

- Manipulative and cunning behavior

- Willingness to do whatever it takes to achieve goals

- Lack of empathy or concern for others

- Prone to lying and deception

- Focus on achieving power and control

Psychopathy:

- Lack of empathy or remorse

- Impulsivity and recklessness

- Superficial charm and charisma

- Prone to antisocial behavior

- Lack of guilt or shame

It's worth noting that everyone may exhibit some of these traits at times, but individuals with Dark Triad personalities tend to exhibit these traits consistently and in a way that interferes with their relationships and daily life.

So you see what I’m up again saying that I am not very happy at the moment having to deal with this creature of aggravation that being said, I’ve noticed that matter AI was able to do AI artwork you just have to type it like a bar Simpson meet siren head and it’ll come up as that a few things would be that came up as a flower I mentioned a flower that is black With pink speckles on it, I will show you that pretty soon. It was very interesting and need to see this come up and I didn’t think that this would come up as an art thing either I made some book covers about!

It was very interesting to be honest with you these couple of days that have been very honestly I really should be working on my polarized thing which is like it’s either good or it’s not so good and there’s never happy medium when it comes to my sink it’s either good or shit. For example, my brother and me I thought was being rude and still think he was being rude to this day, it was just a day ago and my polarized thinking said that he was being very rude That is one of the trades of being a Parian star seed is that you have very polarized thinking sometimes when it comes to your traitor thought sometimes it’s hard to get that out of your head this train of thought to be honest with you I’m not happy about this trainer. Thought this one trait I tell you is a pain in my ass to be honest with you, especially when you’re trying to deal with PTSD as well as other shit that goes on in your head is not fun to be honest with you I’d rather be delay with other things than this polarized thinking that means that I said where are things are either good or they’ve gone to hell out the handbasket of hell and handbasket that anything else that pisses me off the most  also I’ve been trying to do my photography for the past week or so since I’ve been dealing with demonic energy with the Perth house that I said that that was the place to while the painting guy was there pay or house that being said it was kind of aggravating, but I ended up liking the idea photography.  First, the idea of concept photography would start off with the creepy dolls, and the Perth house space with which I’m pretty sure you said of the energy!The big city, creative things I was able to try to hold my fortitude with that but now I’m burnt out as far as trying to deal with other things like people talking about this particular place that being said, I’ve been very interested in doing photography now and doing quality photography the word I’m going to show you is the word about the Covid ball being sprayed to death. It was a deflated soccer ball in my workplace. I took a picture of it with my cleaning supplies and it was kind of funny in my opinion so I just decided to do it . 

You’ll be honest I like being creative. I like tomorrow with my clothing on of course modelling is very interesting thing to do, but that has been sort of the point this one was this one picture that I showed you with the cleaning supplies of the The soccer ball was basically the idea that I fucking hate certain viruses particularly ones that act like Kohl’s COVID-19 that one is not my favourite virus. That being said I kinda try to poke it from target whatever I get the chance with my creativity one time I even had someone sorry bunch of somebody sorry the soccer ball that I had and comment to make either nice or very snarky comments about me or the soccer ball nice about me and snarky about the soccer ball. I will show you that one day but the point probably under a bunch of books and I’m probably not able to get them out  but anyways I’ve been reading a lot lately since I was at this demonic house or the demon houses I call it because it was the only thing I can do is Internet was shit there in the first place !there was no music there was no Kai. There was no nothing. There was nothing at all, except I couldn’t even write because of the simple fact that that included Internet as well I think their Internet is either affected by demotic experience or other otherwise anyways let’s see I’ve been trying to go about, oh let’s say just being creative with my photography like I said with a soccer ball I just saw that I could resist it and then there was one picture of me with the projector that I have in my room. I turned off all the lights in my room and this is what came out of it!

This is basically me as a star she but it’s me with the star projector images splashed over my face and stuff. It is kind of interesting to be honest with you that you are able to see and experience the star projector while modeling. It’s very interesting. I like to model usually, I do a lot of Face paint work because I like face paint and I keep my clothing on of course because I fry the don’t  put the clothing on when they in front of the camera or just asking for shit in my opinion, I don’t believe in nudity or anything like that so there’s no way you could actually see me go around in the nude camera. Otherwise I only go in there format of clothing, the nude when I go take a shower and that’s it very rarely will it ever happen except to take a shower of course so I’m I say nice thing is a weird jester, some clothing and some creepy face paint and a way you go that is it that is basically what you need or sometimes a star projector and you in front of the damn thing and see what happens. I wanna see what else would happen if I use that star projector with the other colours and see from one day  to be honest with you this is what I like to do, but I also like to do a lot of drawing and writing  and reading!

Have you read the last apothecary?!   It is a very good book. It even started to get me into thinking about writing a book about where men who were in a book club, but they end up talking about how aggravating their manner in real life so they had up having a poisoning club is kind of a pack pathic about poison!  What is very interesting. This is my book that I decided to do for my own version of the lost apothecary!

August 5, 2024

It’s midnight right now and I cannot seem to breathe because my nose is stuffed up. I tried blowing out a couple of times today or right now actually and still no luck. I am mung up in the nose to tell you the truth. I am not happy about that, having this whatever it is, I’m pretty sure it is allergies. Some people think it’s a cold. I know it’s not Covid but it’s just very aggravating things to deal with at this time is not being able. You’re being boarded by your own body and stuff actually this is not very fun to tell you the truth !   I just woke up from my nightmare and I can’t remember exactly but it did involve water boarding because it was what I perceive was going on at the time because of my not being able to breathe right with my nose. It feels like is literally pouring water in my nose and over my mouth it’s not I’ll tell you that I’d rather not deal with that ever again, but I know I will have to deal with that some point. I know it’s not my nose ring this causes it either.!

This whole idea of not being able to breathe is very triggering for me because of the fact that I was basically that’s what happened to me as a Baby is not uncommon for polarian star seeds to have gone through a lot of drama and excruciating pain in their life. In fact this is not any different for me. Is the fact that I have had a lot of trauma in my life. so what are the things that I may have been told when I was younger my black and white only good and evil thinking is also a sign of me being a Polarian star that I have not been able to comprehend until now that I have very polarize thinking when it comes to certain things like this is not a cold to me for example, this is solved on my breathing there’s no where I think there’s just your idea. I am just being aggravated to the point to return if you wanna put it that way!  I’m not one Do you think in the middle or or the shades of the metal icon say fuck those ideas and just either is good or bad or good or evil that basically by take her on the world and that’s basically it!

I remember having a mental health worker her name is Cassandra Alexandra. Cassandra was always complaining about me being polarized thinking where I end up thinking either is good or it is a pile of shit and this case she never really agreed with me very much of what I had to say to me, lying was bad, even if it was a white lie stuff like that it was just aggravating to her because she had to deal with my attitude was sometimes sucked. I must admit my attitude sometimes sucked, but this I must tell you is that I did not find a place I went to in fact I’ve written a story about the place. I went to last week the one that was haunted by Hirohito! that being said that was not my polarized, thinking that was because I was spiritual sensitive. Someone who is able to feel energies and spirits or in this case with this demons or the devil I still don’t believe that people should not be denying the fact that there is a devil, but should not worship it either the idea is that the devil is an actual reoccurring thing the same with demons that are reoccurring and nature as well so you have to be very careful, very, very careful when it comes to where you end up and how it feels, if it doesn’t feel right to you, I find that you may as well just run as fast as possible and turn tail and forget about that place. That’s what I think. I usually the thing with these kind of places is that, everyone else usually likes this particular place instead of the one person that one person being a light worker star seed whatever that is able to experience these energies for what they really are. It’s kind of interesting. I wrote a story about it, but I will not worry too much about that or do you want me to forget it all right about it anyway 

When I moved in to another house for the week I ended up walking into the place with something that hit me like an airplane it was the most malevolent and negative energy I have ever felt in my life! As I was trying to settle I could not because of people mentioning these creepy dolls at the end of the basement of the house! I never really saw these damned dolls until I left this accursed place! That house was not normal nor an ordinary experience as the first night we were there the alarm went off mysteriously! That was the day I ended up seeing what looked like an apparition of a Japanese man committing seppuku! I was able to see the facial features of the ghost or what I thought was just a ghost and didn’t think about it until I went to bed the next night!

Early that day I got into two fights with two other friends (this was after seeing the ghost commit seppuku), that night after the fighting I realized that spiritually I was way in over my head as I was dealing with demonic entities….as being the clairvoyant that I am I found that it was the evil Japanese emperor who founded unit 731, Hirohito himself that was in the house….he was the demon from the blasts of hell! When I was talking more and more about it the more likely that I was getting out of character and that was when I realized that this was the first sign of demonic attachment that you have not possession! As they can only attach themselves to your soul!

“I for got my healing stones in my room,” I said.

So my friends ended up looking for quartz crystals that would help me until I was either cope or get out of this nasty situation! And one of them was a black quart!

This is what it can do

It is believed to help clear blockages in all 7 main chakras, allowing energy to flow freely through them. Furthermore, this stone has many additional benefits such as providing physical protection from electromagnetic frequencies and radiation exposure, as well as any black crystal is able to defend from negative or demonic energy!

To be honest I was atheist when my belief on the devil and the demons! I was not a Christian, Muslim nor Jewish so why should I be fearful what I thought was a man made idea! That was until I went to this fucking place…..

I came back a few crystals richer but I was starting to snap and yell at more and more people! Effectively blaming the ex boyfriend who cheated on me for opening this can of worms! I was not happy! My ex is named James by the way….. I still blame him for summoning Hirohito back to earth! As far as I was concerned the next few weeks were going to be critical Shamaniclady and spiritually as I had to do this battle with just a few ( quite a few) crystals now to help ward of the evil that I encountered!

Also I up on leave this house of horrors I decided to see this dolls that people were meantioning I said or repeated an incantation to protect my self as I took the picture of these dolls or the portal to hell as I called it! I am still very certain that Hirohito and many other demons are still in that house, evil people from history! And I think by me saying that mantra that I was able to close that portal to hell if not temporarily!

As you know I am a polarian starseed and my psychic abilities are bar none! But what the fuck I felt…..if you ever feel that kind of engery or emotion might I give you some advice! Fucking turn tail and run like the hell you are trying to avoid! That is all I have to say!

The creepiest part is that people didnot abandon this fucking fun house from hell!

And that was just a fictionalized story that I written for a book Stones and dolls that being said, it’s very interesting to see what kind of things. My imagination will come up based on these true events to tell you the truth. The whole story was not my imagination. It was the actual truth, Some of the details like peoples names and stuff may have been fudged in order to not get too much shit. I find it very important to be honest about what you write and say what you have to say.this case was basically what it was and I still am wrapping my head around this whole idea that this house was haunted and then yeah I just can’t get the whole idea that a place can be haunted. I’ve heard of this on horror, movies and stuff, but never in real life, to be honest with you was a time when I developed this cold that I have and that I could not see shake off for whatever reason known 

Actually, I don’t like having this cold to be honest with you. It’s very disturbing to be honest with you to have this cold, especially after you’ve had a deal with the above fictional story about what I had to deal with as far as hunting were concerned I don’t want haunted houses the kind of walk-through like Saunders farm or when he go trick-or-treating and they’re not as, spooky or haunted as the ones in real life those ones I find are the worst of the worst !   And the words are usually the ones that are found in real life find and that you cannot help but want to get away from them as soon as possible. Some people are afraid of haunted houses that are for Halloween the fact that they are a strobe lights and stuff sometimes it’s because of the seizures, which I can understand but sometimes the people are just afraid of someone jumping in front of them and saying boo that being said well that was one thing try living what I had to live through for a week and not getting $100 or $1000 for compensation that being said, it was kind of a pain in my ass to be honest with you to have to go through and not be paid good money. This is the first time I would say that I would wanna have money in my life because as well be paid to deal with this shit to be honest with you. I did not exactly enjoy this particular haunted house. It was not like the Halloween fun houses where people pop out of the hell out of nowhere then give you candy. A real shit. This was the real deal I could deal with this to be honest you could imagine why is like on hell when the veil has, thin or left from our world to the spirit !

There are two times of the year when the They left or either and up being sooner than usual one is in May 31 the other one obviously would be on Halloween October 31 and these are the times the year when things can get very dangerous spiritually happy I found this to be very disturbing that there was May 31. I knew there was May 31, but I didn’t know it acted the same way as hell all day and the whole hell breaking loose for one whole day at least twice a year was a pain in my ass to be honest with you. I wouldn’t wanna go through this either again, but this part I have no choice where has the place I went to last week I find that I was able to  contact my brother and I have a foot my door. If I should do this again I could go somewhere else really particularly brother home for that week instead of dealing with the actual haunted house that I’ve dealt with negative before and I’ve dealt with positive energy energy before I find that the more strange the place more negative the energy it is , it’s kind of sad to be honest with you when everyone else likes the same place except you don’t like it because of your abilities is kinda ablest to be honest with you that they would do that to you but not ablest as an after people with disabilities, but people who were spiritual powers instead like medium shape, or  star seeds, and light work both of which I am happy said I did not enjoy the whole idea of being frightened for a whole week and not being able to sleep. One part being the other part being the goddamn ghost that was haunting me and that wouldn’t stop running. 

As for now, all I have to deal with is the goddamn nose from hell that is really a dripper instead of anything else I will not grow you out on too much of the details, but you basically get the idea of the fact that it’s not fun having a cold especially this one that’s as demonic as it is it keeps coming back at least I don’t have someone who’s gonna give it back to me so that being said I’m pretty happy that I am single. That means I have a cold. It could go away and stay away, but I’m not too sure if that is the truth as I do have roommates  That I live with and stuff like that it’s kind of interesting that this can be become a vicious circle. If you’re not careful, I will try to drink a lot of cilantro or pastel trying to up my immune system because I know that stuff is really good for your immune system!

August 4, 2024

So I been working for the wattpad Watty’s 2024 for the past 4 two five months!  Actually it was it was for months of straight writitng!  And believe it or not it was 10 books that I entered in to the Watty’s this year, the reason 10 books was the fact that I was going through therapy and started writing after one of my therapy sessions 3 book memoir!  That being said I thought that would be a good idea for my mental health!  Then ……then something popped in my head and I started a 6 book series , with 3 back stories would be 9 books….the 3 backstory are for next years 2025 watty’s!  That being said I have been writing none stop because of my PTSD therapy!  I find that with a guitar, a human therapists, and writing  that these three things actually worked and I am sorry to neglect this boot basically writing 10 books takes lots of time that I sometimes I need to do to help with my annoyance a.k.a PTSD!  

I find that writing and the guitar help me the most.  I always liked writing because of the PTSD factor as it has help ian flemming  and Romeo Dallaire and other creative but traumatized minds with theirs wounds!   I like being able to create a good story weather it be a romance or something based of my life I find that writing help ultimately to clear the head!     This writing contest I wanted to do for 5 years now and I finally enter 10 books this year……I have my therapist to thank for that!  As I was able to rid my self of most of my demons for the 4 to 5 months!  I like being able to writes as my head will not explode on site if I do…..where is if  I don’t write I am behavioural shit show 

This one writing contest I wanted to do since the covid years because it  interested in me!  It was something for 5 years I have been striving for only to come up with ten different books 6 of which are a party of a series!  It was quite interested to see that the wanted book after book!  To the point that I was getting better at making 50,000 words+ was interesting enough for me to realize that I had it in me were was in the covid years I was able to just pump out 10 short chapters now my characters are evolved as well as my writing! And  as for the guitar I remember during said covid years that my brother Jonathan gave me an acoustic guitar and I have not stopped play it when I figured it out with Amanda Jordan’s help!  

  That being said I re learned the guitar in Feburary 2024 on my 35th birthday.   Find of interesting that one small time concert would do that but I don’t do blue grace it is more indie rock and folk and punk!  That being said I still refer to the guitar when times get ugly or I need an album out! 

I was not just doing different genres of writing as I write a couple of short stories called shaman: creepy short stories. That being said that and one other book was not romance in my opinion as I was more interested in romance writing as way to calm my self down after a pissy day!   I rarely have pissy days now a days!  But the main thorn in my side is the fact that my ex cheated and lied about the how things too me!  That was what start my hyper graphy again and I was able to get some books out for the Watty’s…..I guess not all bad things are bad as I am on a journey about my self and dealing with on my self for a year or two as I was really hurting from this year long shit relationship that I was in!   I don’t know the nature of his cheating but he is manipulative in ways that will piss of a dark triad person!  (Socio or psychopath)…..and that is saying something right there 

I don’t like the idea of my ex doing this to women but he is what he is the darkest of the dark triad!  As a polarian starseed I only see good or evil…..never the greys in between that!  It is kinda annoying to be honest with you. About this but then there it as well!

Some people would think that I am playing on the details too much but that that is basically what the fuck happened that fateful night at baseball that made me either very angry or very fast runner!  I could not believe that the last year was based on lies and fiction!  

To me ficition is only meant for the wattpad watty’s not in real life unless you are a writer like me who likes telling stories but I always tell the fucking truth outside of blogging or writing!  I still remember telling the truth and being accused of lying at age 7….it didn’t feel nice to me. And I wanted to cry but I just punched the teacher!  

You can imagine that the  teacher was going to give me retribution for punching them out ….. a 20 to 30lbs girl punching out a teacher was what happens when you accuse some of that weight class of lying!  I could imagine my mother was not happy about both me p nor the teacher if I remember correctly!

Since I had  never lied about anything that I know off in my life, why the fuck that  would my boy friend do the same…. It was not fair and traumatic to be honest with you! I hate him still to this day as he was a lying sack of shit…… you can almost imagine that my guitar was going to see the light of day again pretty soon!  As I was not happy about what he had done to me this was worse then assault, it was soul assault!   That would be the better wording for that! As when some abuses you through cheating i would called soul assault as it really does hurt the soul!  I found that when my boyfriend laught at me he was fucking laughing at the who thing = narcissistic and he was a control freak….. the freak would not let me get tattoos, then only person who will say “no” tattoos is the Grimm reaper not a mortal human!

I will be getting tattoos until the day I am satisfied or if I die!  That being said I Hope satisfied comes first as  people like Kirk don’t belong on this planet if they are going to objectify woman!    And what is a shocker is that he went for a morbidly obese woman with little to no teeth and he was doin’ her will dating me!  ….jack ass I say!

So you can see what I have been writing 10 books in the span of 4 months and the not writing in here as much.  But that is the case with dark triad people is the like someone who can manipulate over and over again,   I on the other hand am too smart to play with that BM.

The fact that he was manipulating or trying to manipulate me was one thing! I have to forgive sooner or later,   Better later then sooner because I cannot stand him!  Things went to a head when I we had to move for a week and the place that we were staying in was haunted…..not by ghosts but by demonic entities that were showing them selves as either negative energy that will hit you like a brick wall or that you saw apparitions of people comming seppuku!  Which was disturbing enought to be honest I never want that fucking place again as I could not deal with the apparitions and the evil engery that was Hirohito, yes I play name that demon!  Not a game I want to play but there it was.

What I did not like about this place was that I also disconnected form the outside world causing me to got batty and have a shit show behaviours in the first place I did not want to deal that again so I got I touch with family to keep me sane enough to get through this shit show!

 Me and haunted houses that are actually haunted by demonic entities, like Hirohito is not what I call a fun fucking week….it is as what the navy seal training is called…..hell week emphasizes on HELL!  as there was just horrible effect for everyone!  That being said I am still recharging and regaining sleep that I lost for this complete hell show!   

Why would a bunch of well to do good people go insane so fast in one week to be honest t that is the truth…….i should have brought an originate pyramid or something to ward this fucker way!  After I that week I don’t ever what to experience that kind of evil that raw pure evil that you will have nightmares from the spirits not from PTSD ….the PTSD is the east part spiritual warfare is not my coup of coffee!  It was horrorible to fend off things that go bump in the night from your soul while dealing with PTSD at the same time!       

Did you know that black anything crystal or stone will help with spiritual warfare and negative energy!…..it is true!