I have been enjoying the day mostly outside for the most part the cicadas are out again trying to sing their song is very interesting indeed to hear them. It is about late p.m. now so I’m just gonna tell you I helped with the groceries. I didn’t do very much with, anything except that I created some trading cards for my Facebook group that being said it was very interesting to do trading cards I just hope that people would accept them as they have been a little bit more rough around the edges more so than I thought they would be and I am kind of pissed off that they were that way that they didn’t turn out as well as I thought they would. I thought they would be like a nice forest with each of the different constellations and stuff but it didn’t turn out as well as I’d hope it turned out. I use a sharpie instead of just normal pan that kind of would probably clenched it in the first place I haven’t been having very much success with that, but I hope that people can understand that well it was my beginner is loser lock that started this all up and that I can actually try again sometime when I have more money that being said is very interesting that trading cards that you can make for trading cards. I belong to an artist trading card club on Facebook. I would like to be able to make some friends on that particular group but as I said, I just have , my trading cards I think people are laughing me out of the group at this point in time I’m not really giving a rats ass at this point because I’ve been laughed out of plenty of other groups, but I’m not gonna get laughed out of this one for sure the idea that you’ve been out of a group let’s say is not always the most enjoyable thing to deal with and with me with my more flight and flight response I usually confront the asshole who’s causing me to be pissed off at the group in the first place and usually affectively getting me blocked from that group there was one group people were tearing my photos down not literally off of Facebook, but on the group they were saying bad things and saying stupid shit that being said I was very angry and I did not like that and I decided to ban myself from that group. I didn’t care too much for that group to be honest with you!
I’ve been laughed out of groups before, and as very aggravating, as sometimes I even went as far as to post about the people who are laughing at my post and I’ve told them that if they weren’t gone from the group I was, and they revoked my points and stuff was pretty stupid. Didn’t like the idea that some people would choose the bully over the person being bullied, but it is what it is sometimes some people are just idiots. I just called them humans instead of human beings at times like this because they are not, quite human if you know what I mean or not quite human being enough to care about the right person who is being picked on that being said I’ve had this that may as well have been my particular biography, but it didn’t turn out that was gonna be my memoir Title it was something else but anyway let’s see what was going to happen anyways it was very interesting to see what people would think about my artist trading cards. I know they were rushed. I know that but took about three hours to get them done. I I have an idea in my head, help me God, thinking of something that will be a lot better and then I have to plough that idea into the ground if you would and pay it if you would is kind of important to me that I do that in someways cause I’m afraid I’ll forget some cases not that I have too much of a crappy memory. I have too much of a good memory at times that causes people to think that I have grudges against other people, but I don’t actually do in some cases. It’s just I remember what they have done in the first place that piss me off that makes me remember them more so then I say a good person doing something nice to me not being said I don’t try to hold grudges because some people think that I am holding grudges!
I’m not gonna say who made me think I have hold grudges in the past but it’s stressed the way it is with the way. My brain is working and stuff that I just remember the crappy part is usually the case with some people that we just remember the crappy parts instead of the more memorable good parts That being said, I’ve been screwed and tattooed most my life until up to this point where I’ve now just assume people are just gonna screw me over all over again just for some odd reason. I am honestly thinking that that is what some people having their hearts is that they’ll just try to screw you over some of them do some of them don’t and Fact, the idea that I had to delete another Facebook dating profile because I was afraid of my emotions was enough for me to deal with the particular deleting of the Facebook profile of Facebook dating profile because I’ve had been twice bitten once and I am not ready for a third time to be bitten so that being said One thing I remember was giblet head and her friend this first giblet had who I’m pretty sure was a sociopath try to get me well succeeded in making me take pictures. I’m not usually far of taking pictures of that alone and seeing that being said she ended up trying to blackmail me and it was very disturbing and then her friends said she’s posting pictures blah blah blah. It was kind of aggravating to be honest with you that I was dealing with this kind of situation was because the first person is not the person who is working for them, which would be the psychopath. I’ll tell you that I was not happy about the whole idea. I remember the person‘s name that I hold a grudge against those two people because they’ve caused so much damage for me. I could’ve lost a lot of things because of what these shitheads did to me and I’m pretty sure they were horrible human beings. They could probably cause a lot of fucked up shit Trying to start that kind of people that they will cause conflict between nations because they just wanna go to laugh!
I am trying not to hold grudges on some people, but as I said, these two shouldn’t even put them in the same category as me as a person, but these two people were really bad and I hope they get banned from Facebook and a couple of other social media sites that they may have been using that scam other people you must have a black and dark gift to do that Tell you the truth they were one of them was a sociopath which is a level up for a psychopath. Sociopath tells what the psychopath is going. The psychopath says oh he’s gonna post a picture and stuff like that and it’s a real shit show. I found that this was God , awful for me to deal with so it was just at the beginning of spring so wonderful happy spring for me !
I couldn’t get over this certain issue for a long time and I was bugging the hell out of me for quite some time that I didn’t wanna deal with the ramifications anymore, but thank God there were very little ramifications except I might have to take an online safety course I just think I need to take a psychiatry course in order to better these kind of assholes who can cause a lot of problems. I have been dealing with these types of people most of my life who are really sociopathic and psychopathic to the point where I can actually smell them, By that I mean, I’m getting fed up to the point where I can actually tell when someone is a dark triad or has dark triad personalities that being said it does sound like polarize thinking, but I’ve been dealing with a lot of crap from a lot of crap people and I can actually tell when they’re gonna be crappy or not so crappy just buy the first instinct or the first impression of them that being said I don’t like these scammers to be honest with you!
Yes, I have the ability to find out if someone is a dark triad just by being around them enough to know that well yes it’s pretty bad that they can give off a certain energy that even as I said a profiler cannot even feel they have this energy that is beyond words or beyond comprehension, even for behavioural profile or that being said, you only have to be an empath to know when someone is dark triad, or has dark triad trays they can actually make you feel uncomfortable They can make you feel not Addy the right things at the right time and shit like that. It’s pretty fucked up to be honest with you. You don’t wanna deal with these types of people like I’ve dealt with most of these people my life not just my aunt my brothers or Some of the friends that were supposed to be friends, but turned out to be fake friends in school. That being said I’m not gonna get into that part right now is the fake friends. The fake friends were pretty bad. Couple of them made me look like I was trying to commit suicide when I was Not even closer even thinking about that then it was more less put on a school watchlist that I was that way, it was kind of bad to be honest with you. That was the first fake friend I ever had and I was pretty bad and I’m tired of these dark triad people who have caused more problems if you were to deal with these people, you would be done with dealing with humans of any type at this point one of the strong signs of polarian star seed is that They have a version of very strong version towards other humans, especially when they’ve been twice bitten. If you would polarian star seeds or not ones who take other peoples bullshit kindly! As I said, we do have a strong version to people, especially when we’ve been traumatized repeatedly. That’s this stars way of thinking polarize and very interesting to see that that is what it is. I don’t know how the other star seeds would think but this is basically how I think!
I don’t know how much to say about the idea of being a Polan star seed, but that is basically the idea of what it is is a star seed is someone who is So was from another star system. Particularly mine was the polarity star system that being said, I am who I am. I said to many people who are going to bug me and bug the hell out of me Either take it or leave it or get out of my way. It is just what it is anyway just trying to create some more book covers that being said not for that serial killer thing but for the other stuff as well that I fly very interesting romance yes I Do write a lot of romance to my thinking as if it mixes the black and the white and something else completely entirely and I’m able to think a little more like everyone else but that is basically what I do to help a great one polarize thinking from another that’s what I do and I do a lot of romance writing for the fact that it is a lot better. It helps you see the life the greys that you need to see in order to have a healthier relationship with someone else like for example when I was with my ex, I did not see things with Fifty Shades of Grey no offence to that term but yeah, I did not use the in my life to see what life really was instead I did not refer to 50 shades as a colour of gray instead, I ended up going and screwing over myself by dealing with him cheating on me and stuff it’s kind of honestly pretty bad myself up for failure to see so that’s why I write a lot of romance novels and stuff like that because it’s a lot easier than saying this is good. This is evil there’s no in between kind of thing there’s something else the next one will be called. we are not talking. 
I have been thinking too much polarized wise thinking with my relationships and I think that’s what may have caused and I’m not saying I’m blaming myself. I do love myself, but I don’t like what other people think of me that they may not be as happy with me as some other people are happy with me that being said that’s their screw job not mine. I’m just living my life as best as possible. If you know what I’m talking about my ex he’s a he did himself screwed job by only dealing with, certain people that do not think polarize or don’t try to think polarize instead he didn’t see what he was gone now he’s gonna miss out on what we lost and that’s his problem not mine as I said we don’t talk anymore. Will be something similar to this particular thing only it’ll be a lot more , romantic and not as much as being cheated on I think that’s what the beginning of the story will be and they’ll be enemies to friend still lovers kind of thing that being said I hope that will be the case with this book. Will it be interesting enough I don’t know, but I would be sure happy to see more of these types of books. I did a colleen Hoover style ugly love style different. It starts with her so whatever type of book cover I find those are very beautiful book covers. I know some people may think that calling Hoover right about some things that are pretty awful, but I never found anything wrong with her books and I read nine of them. …….
I wish people would calling Hoover for the topics she writes and actually start reading her books and actually just reading them unbiassed like I did and say well that was a good rousing read instead of this is a fan or disgusting. I wish people would stay more of that offensive and disgusting, unless it is something that is purely hateful or is torturing it galore I think then something may be said that yes it is disgusting and offensive but if it is not a hateful book, I don’t think he should be or it’s not torture wall to wall torture I don’t think you should worry about the idea of it being a disgusting book so really stop people! Guess there are a few other polarian star seeds out there that people don’t know they are but they use it for the wrong reasons. At least I try to be moral about my decisions!
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