I have had it with this cold where I am gonna drippy nose and stuff. I know that’s TMI too much and tell, but it is what it is. I’m getting a sick and tired of waking up feeling like I’m being waterboarding by some ass only see this, my nose acting up and dripping The joy of ragweed freezer and certainly not a cold as I find that the neck down I’m feeling pretty good except for the stupid nose that is always constantly dripping and everything else. I’d like to have one night sleep with a clear nose and not have to worry about feeling like I’m being waterboarding that being said I’m afraid I’ll have a nightmare about that yet again because of It. It is kind of terrible to be honest with you that you would have to end up going around feeling waterboarding when you’re asleep why do you know you’re not gonna get waterboarding? It’s just your nose is runny to the point where it is going all over the place that being said it’s not my cup of tea to have ragweed season. yes, that’s what it is is ragweed and it is a pain in my ass to be honest with you. I don’t like it never like this. The last time ragweed was out. I ended up being tested for Covid because of the very fact that I was so stuffed up and runny nose for the whole week of the Perth fair that being said, I hate ragweed. Yes, that’s how I feel about Paul and grass pollen and anything else for that matter where you end up feeling like you just wanna sneeze or that you feel like you’re constantly being water boarded that being said I wish I wouldn’t have to use it breathe it is exactly what it is Some people think it’s cold. Some people think it is whatever but I know damn well it’s ragweed season and sand I don’t like ragweed to be honest with you by the time tomorrow comes I’m gonna be asking for a bandage drill so I can at least have some sort of breathing relief. I enjoy sneezing every time the nose has to act up and stuff a lot better in the daytime that is at night to go around sleep, I would sleep for the daytime, but I don’t try to at least the severity of these allergies. I’m gonna have to take Benadryl just to enjoy a good night sleep and not have to worry about trickling down my throat and stuff!
I really wish I was writing about something else a good dream or something of that effect but it is what it is. My nose is a pain in the ass and I can’t stand it anymore. I can only be awake. That’s the only way I can breathe in the first place is by staying awake. I can’t stay awake now because it’s like midnight and it’s driving me insane that it is constantly driving me insane and stuff like that. Why is this having to happen to me, I don’t fart. This is very fair that I have to have these bad allergies.
Actually, if I could, I would go Stargate and that is the honest truth because I do enjoy stargazing, but I don’t know how cold it is out there or how rainy it is. It’s been raining most of the summer and most of what I’m dealing with as far as trying to stargaze, I get shit And nothing else that being said it’s kind of aggravating to be able to see the big. I wanted to take a picture of the big dipper and actually see it and actually be proud of showing that particular picture off that being said that’s not the case with me instead I end up having to deal with disappointment after disappointment in life sometimes sometimes other things! It usually does not happen nowadays as my family or relatives I should say are out of my life, and I don’t have to deal with massive amounts of disappointment, but being able to take a picture of the big dipper would be my favourite thing to do right now and say well low-key here took a picture of that That is what I said I think it’s important to say that I look at the big dipper instead of oh well disappointed all the time with my nose or something. I’d like to be out and take a picture of the big dipper but as I said, the weather is not always on my side, whether my nose or otherwise it kind of aggravated to be truthful with you.
These allergies I find her aggravating, especially when you’re trying to sleep and especially when you’re trying to sleep with PTSD that said it is a shit show is not fun to try to sleep and have nightmares galore and stuff. The Ford hubcap looks nice and it’s pretty interesting and so is my poster that I did a few hours ago that was pretty fun in south, but it was very interesting to To create your own poster out of another poster that being said, I’d rather this than the other poster that was actually defacing my eyes! And my morals know it was not of that major, but it was just not what I liked trying to hide a lot of these mushroom tapestries and not have to worry about them or I just colour over them and the hell with them kind of thing!
That being said, I don’t know what I’m gonna do for the rest of the night if I want to try to sleep or not or something to that effect or watch king of the hill I think it was watching something else. It was interesting. Oh yeah, Dahmer, the story of Jeffrey Dahmer Jackass is a real idiot to be honest with you is Jeffrey Dahmer who is a horrible horrible whatever you wanna call this kind of a creature oh sorry you might say serial killer but I think he’s just an asshole and human clothing and that he is pretty god-awful person to be honest with you. You can tell a lot about him because he was a psychopath he was , very quiet and everything else and was he’s a jerk to be honest with you and he is what he is. I watched this show before it was very Interesting and it is beautifully done. That big said I do a lot of interesting videos or TV shows or streaming nowadays as they called. I remember the day when I used to be able to go and rent to movie and we still go to the movie theatre but rent to A movie DVD VHS get some goddamn popcorn into us and some sodas I used to like the orange crushed still do but I never really think of these simple things until I realize well they’re gone now because of the streaming services that nothing really is as good as it seems except for the Dahmer thing or the things that cater to the older people like me not too old I am 35 years old on 36 that being said, I’d be very interested to see where this will lead to most of the old retro staff is on Tubi but as I said, it’s not as good as having the actual thing of your hand and say yeah I just rented the movie or rented. The DVD said when were those days there and they’re gone now I have one video from where there was a lot of VHS. It is called alien autopsy , I watched it before but now it’s just testament to my childhood about that. My childhood was kinda like the X-Files!
Why do I say that about my childhood basically my friends and I literally and Phil would go and watch the X-Files. We would read the X-Files VHS or anything of that nature example alien autopsy and we would Watch these things on hours on and that being said it was very interesting to find the scans and question do they really exist and stuff I actually like that part of my childhood to be honest with you to know that I did have friends now I’m just a loner who has a very few amount of people to talk to very fine. I amount of people to talk to keeps to themselves, but there was one time I had a bunch of friends who were my childhood neighbour zero very good people, and they were honestly happy to be friends with me. Where is the people in school were cringing at the thought of being friends with whatever they were gonna call me at that particular day or because they said it was kind of horrible to deal with this car thing and that was the time ! The big said what was the worst thing these idiot kids in my school called me was a spaz out because of my PTSD and other comorbidities they called my other commodities, retardation and other horrible names and I did not like to hear. I did not enjoy being called spaz out or this other word that being said, it was kind of aggravating the kids would have the authority to know these words and call another kid out as These and not have a medical degree why would they wanna call someone that worldwide in this lifetime you cannot call someone a spaz out or a retard to be honest with you even if you have a medical degree that being said shut the fuck up you little shits!
Not gonna get into a diet tribe about how I was bullied, but you could basically get the idea that that was basically what it was got a picture of it in your mind. If you have been through this, you know what it is like to be bullied to this severity that even the teachers were, pretty much bullying and calling you stupid as that no one else should ever hear!
That being said, I kind of annoyed that people would still say that and now they’re using anatomical terms I’m not gonna say which ones but they’re very derogatory and technical terms that people call each other not to get each other nowadays, which is pretty stupid!
I remember the night before tonight or this morning I should say last night would be the better term. I remember dealing with and confronting one of my phoney friends from school and telling her that it was what it was she didn’t like it. She didn’t have to deal with me anymore because I was gonna kick her ass kind of thing, don’t usually believe in violence, but that was what the dream handed over to me at least she said what the fuck is your problem about talking Or about us in that way that being said that’s what I grabbed her hair in the dream and the rest was history. I ended up, punching her and kicking her in the face and stuff is not exactly what I wanted in a dream, but as I said, it felt satisfying because, she was riding my ass and stuff like that. It was kind of awful to be an eighth grader and heavier, schoolyard friends to be treat you like shit when they should be having back and they were attacking it any which way or form or call you stupid names or having the teachers call you stupid names. I still don’t get that to this day, but it is what it is. Some kids are pretty stupid to be honest with you that they would go around calling other kids names pretend to be their friends and shit. That being said I will make another special childhood you won’t believe Half the shit I went through with these little shit in school and what really happened to me that really triggered these little shits. They didn’t think this happened. They thought I was crazy but Whether it happened or not, it does not give you the right to act as shit to another kid! Nor treat them differently because of this occurrence that!
I’m not gonna say exactly what had happened that caused him to be such little shit right now until I mentioned it in writing in this case I will not be mentioning this, but it has to do with something about the paranormal and it was pretty eerie. what had happened and I told them in confidence and they told the whole fucking school that being said I will let you know more about that another post!
It was all pretty fucking ugly to be honest with you that these kids would treat you differently because of these I don’t know why I think they were more atheist and they were Catholic not that I was Catholic…… I was a nature worshipper that being said I’m not Catholic either, but I’m certainly not fucking atheist!
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