The fact that this actually had intense light when you put them all together was very interesting to me. I find that I wanted to do this, but I don’t know where to find them until I was cleaning out my room the backstory about cleaning out my room is the fact that I have a cleaning job And another place not where I live, but cleaning job to pay for tattoos, piercings blues festival, and other things like that that being said, I find that cleaning actually helps with my mindfulness and meditation. I know some people would say that that is a bad thing for your brain is meditation, but it isn’t exactly the worst thing either. Actually, it actually helps me clear out shit from my head Out my ear and I don’t have to deal with it ever again when I clean it’s more than just money to me. It’s actually mindfulness and meditation so he said why don’t you go and do that to your room and I said I think I might do that that being said what I did, I was feeling at the top of my game , just like cleaning them, but I was at the top of the game. I was enjoying this until I found the glow stack that was the idea that the glow sticks were going off all at once when I broke them that being said it was very interesting and I said well as well. Do something creative with them now And I waited a while after I done my cleaning after a while before I went to bed to do this! they said I wish people would find cleaning as more inspiration and self and marvel way of meditating and mindfulness so just thinking it’s a chore I find it helps me with a lot of things that help me work out my hyperactivity and stuff if I’m ever hyper again I know where to go this time that being said I find this is very important to do especially for your mental health so that was the backstory of why I was cleaning my room for fun that being said I have a long way to go still !
As I have a lot of things to do that being said is very interesting to see where this will take me one day I just clean my room but the same friend who mentioned that I should clean my room for fun whenever I feel bored or something or angry or something actually, he was the one that suggested that I do my own cleaning business he used to have an idea for a for himself and used business called China. I asked him if I could use that name shine he said yes, I was cleaning thing that being said after work on that logo everything that being said is very interesting to cleaning and far that actually helped my neighbour after the end of the day. I still felt like a bad day because someone couldn’t stop triggering subject matter I obviously ignored him, but it was starting to wear on me.
There’s person who does this. I don’t wanna say what their name is that or something that a fact that being said their name is irrelevant they just like to poke at you and trigger you at times trigger. I learned from an ex-boyfriend means That you are pissed upset that being said this person likes to do a lot of pissing off as far as I was concerned he kept it up all afternoon and I think I blew my all over the place that being said I don’t think I did but did I did not enjoy having to blow my shit all over everyone and say stupid stuff and shit like that that really could get me into a lot of trouble over a goddamn meeting that really wasn’t any importance except me. He did not have to buzz into my business and then try to up everything that being said I don’t try to talk of people, but as I said, this guy likes to trigger you until you act really badly out of that being said, I think he does. He doesn’t have very much activities or hobbies. I should get him an Account on wattpad! Maybe it would give him something to do. Maybe it would give him something to realize that he was being a jackass or something to that effect but I don’t think he would use it instead he’s just a pain in the arse. I don’t like to say that about my friend, but as I said, sometimes she does this so I can do something completely awful to whoever is around me, and I look like an asshole, that being said, I did not really enjoy having him come up saying first time that was what it was. I should’ve said Set Was pissing me off in the first place it wasn’t anyone else’s fault but instead of made it look like everyone else’s fault instead of me and set! That being said, I think this was supposed to be between the two of us and not anyone else but he made it to the point where I got other people involved and this is over something that was completely minuscule and I wouldn’t have thought about that so I ended up having an early night last night and decided not to deal with this bullshit anymore because I just found him upset and triggering the same damn word!
I had to get away from him usually he’s a nice guy, but sometimes he’s looking for a laugh. He’s gonna piss you off now and and he’ll do it in a way that’ll make you feel sorry for yourself and other things and then go after other people that shit it’s his idea of comedy, but it’s not really comedy. It’s tragedy to be honest with you. That being said I did not like set way of doing things was not being a very nice person he kept harping on this situation as if it was funny about the whole thing making me dwell on the whole situation. I know this thing is over and done with. I am in my bedroom. I don’t have to worry about him, but instead, he fucked it up by Talking about the subject did not wanna hear about him being said I wish I could go back in time and apologize or better yet find another way to blow my shit without going all over everyone and making everyone feel like crap that being said I don’t like that idea blowing my cake top!
Basically, this is my black-and-white thank you or my polarized thinking again that was starting to creep in that being said I was not very happy about the idea of saying that this guy is an asshole end of story kind of thing when he was actually there he is actually a nice guy, but he probably was having a bad moment as well. I don’t blame him on that part but I don’t think it’s nice to take it out on people or make me or make other people take it out on other people as well I don’t think it was very polite, I found this very rude and I wanted that to be mentioned in the whatever wanted to be brought up, but it was never brought up. It was what I did that was brought up and stuff that was pretty bad if I could just talk to the people I hurt and say listen. I was not my right frame of mind so I was riding my ass and everything else , my emotional ass I should say maybe things would’ve turned out differently or better yet had I just got downstairs to where I live or actually better yet outside and just do a little and then think about it. Let it go baby. Things would’ve been a lot different. I think I should do that. The next time he’s acting like an asshole cause I think that’s what was triggering me. Was this whole change of having this king of assholes Living with me that was kind of like this new roommate he could be very nice most of the time but sometimes if he’s looking for a good laugh, forget about it you’re not gonna find kindness. It is gonna find a fucking bully and I don’t take to kindly with those I don’t have time I got the flight with them not physical freeze cause I know that will land me and license sentence in prison and that would not be OK with me. That would be pretty bad sorry try not to go physical, but he was after me still and I had a defend myself subway and everyone else got attacked at the same time not physically but emotionally that being said I was not happy about this whole situation .
Star Wars being a bully and stuff like that idea that someone’s being a pain in your ass all the time every day all day where you and I find I can’t deal with it that I can deal with it sometimes I can’t and I can’t help but deal with the situation in the light, which is kind of awful what I supposed to say people say what’s up with you I hate the guy that someone said it’s getting to a point where I’m going to be very truthful one day I say well he’s aggravating me to no end! and I don’t like going to say that or say something negative, but I might come up to that that the silliness the anger it was because of the changes that we’re going on and I’m not happy about them and stuff like that I don’t wanna say anything more and make more waves so I’m just gonna have to keep it to myself. I don’t want to, but I don’t wanna blow off either so I have to find a way to, lose my shit because I said I had to go to bed early last night because I was afraid of blowing up again!
That being said I hope today will be a better day and that I don’t have to be aside out of doing anything that I don’t wanna do i.e. getting angry annoyed that being said he was just being a pain in my ass. I don’t know what issues should I just rather continue on and not think about this anymore today is a new day and I’m hoping that it’ll come up a lot better than yesterday That I don’t blow up and act a fool that said it was very interesting. How a couple words can influence me whether or not really my words and stuff like that I found it very aggravating, and I found it more annoying than anything else that someone wouldn’t shut the hell off in the first place at the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong girl as I said, it’s not fun to deal with, but as I said, I didn’t have the choice of dealing with this clown or should I say class clown in the first place who thinks he’s funny but really he’s funnier than a funeral parlour right now because he thinks she’s all that shit and heart that being said it’s very annoying. He is a shit but it’s not hard. He’s just a plain shit. He thinks he’s funny and he’s really not really that funny and I just wanna, walk away from the back and and stuff like that very aggravated and people wonder where I get my polarized thinking from where it comes from I’m not just my spiritual archetype but also because I can’t stand certain people
Those people are loud Schucks funny, and that God‘s gift to people and stuff like that would really they’re horrible human beings and they really should be locked up in jail because there nothing more than people and jail is a place for people other people or I find that he should be in jail and should be in my opinion because he is hurting a lot of people not just me but me as well. It’s kind of annoying to say, but it is what it is. He should be in jail for what he is doing this verbal abuse to the point where I end up doing the same fucking thing.
That being said, I hope this will be better instead of dealing with crap!
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