August 14, 2024 late p.m.

And I organize my room or semi organized my room. It was very interesting indeed to do. I found couple of things particularly these specs that I never thought I’d find them about 100 or 50! That being said being able to break them was satisfying, but I was just organizing my room I did not think that I would find a score like this nor break it that being said it was very interesting and I have some modelling tonight to do as you can see as I have to do a lot of modelling with regards to this. it’s very interesting that I did this cause I was thinking about doing something similar, but I didn’t think I had the glow stick anyway someone said that organizing your room or cleaning it out actually will help you mentally it actually turned out help me a lot because when I do my cleaning, I find it helps me a lot with a lot of things! So clean and organized my room and found these glow sticks!  I broke all of them I don’t know what was more satisfying, cleaning my room, or finding these glow sticks and smashing them!   I think that will be a 2fer!  That being said I was shocked to see that getting rid of shit  and organizing it will help with my PTSD!   But the fun part was the glow sticks!  And breaking and and seeing what would happen!   I did not think they would glow but lo and behold they did! looks like I have some modelling to do tonight which would be with the glow sticks that I busted that being says very interesting to see where the idea comes from creativity and it’s just from cleaning my room. It’s very interesting. I wonder what will happen tomorrow when I clean my room a little bit more that being said what will happen another tattoo come out of my head!   Speaking of which I also mentioned about a tattoo, the idea of getting another tattoo because I was kind of going stir crazy and I didn’t get another tattoo. My head was gonna explode kind of thing and I felt I was doing a lot better than I have been and let’s say since three months ago four months ago, five months ago kind of thing that being said I requested that I would be able to get another tattoo which was very agreeable!

So that made me a little hyperactive in a good way in the idea of getting another tattoo in the fall would be very interesting. I’m not gonna dwell on it, but it is interesting nonetheless to see the fact that I have chosen a tattoo, and get it!  That being said: lucky Number seven that being said this is gonna be my seventh tattoo. It’s one of those flash sale tattoos which I didn’t think I was going to do again, but there was one that resonated with me yet again this is the second year this is happened!   That was when I realized more into flash sales than anything else other than my mental health!

It is a ghostly pumpkin that I’m gonna get. I’ll show you that one tomorrow but it’s very interesting nonetheless that I found this in my own tattoo parlour that I usually go to anyways is interesting to see what I might find and what I might not there about $80 these suckers the last one is about 120 that being said this will be 121 I include the taxes very interesting to see that, I came across this and wanted that to come to life on my left shoulder. That being said it was a hyper inducing.  The fact that I like getting tattoos, I had a funny feeling that I might get a tattoo soon later before now and Bluecrest, but I didn’t think it was going to happen this season. I am very excited about different things. I might be able to go on a date with someone also I will be getting This tattoo would be very interesting for me. I don’t find these suckers heard as much as some people like to think they hurt! If there are only whimsps That being said, I have to tell them all that they do not hurt worse a pinch of turd!  Especially if you take care of them correctly, they don’t hurt with a pinch of craft. That being said I found this very interesting when I had my first tattoo that I didn’t feel anything. In fact, I nearly fell asleep asleep! This is the girl who’s trying to act tough and will not march, but you know what I mean, but it’s not that case I’ve gone through many bumps and bruises in my life and never felt the thing except for my collarbone that one hurt like a bastard! The only thing that would hurt would be rolling an ankle or which does hurt like a crapper! And broken bone!  Those fucking suck! But I find that if it’s skin related the tattoo, I don’t find that it hurts worth a worth a shit’s crap!  That being said It is very unusual that I wrote a book about this a few days ago a week ago about my tattoo journey that I’m still going through that being said that it doesn’t hurt unless you’re 400 pounds or 200 pounds and then you whimper like a little kid that being said, I don’t use my body, but usually it’s a small girls that make it through the tough stuff! It is what it is I can’t help but I think there’s something about men and not dealing with the pain….. I think it has to do with the childbirth element that women have to go through that we are more hardier doesn’t matter about our ethnicity is we are harder than the other gender!   On offense!

Also, I find that when I did my DNA test I was one thing but then testing it against the athletes on the Olympic Games that being said that was very interesting. I wasn’t supposed to have good leadership skills yet. I’m able to wrangle someone into doing the garbage with me so I can make some money. I also find that I have a very high tolerance as I said about the said that I have a piercer that I have  that man usually faint over!  And I was supposed to not have a natural physical strength that I was able to bust the above 100 glow sticks a feet that I think someone couldn’t do unless they were either pretty strong or they were pretty angry. I wasn’t angry, but I was pretty strong to be honest with you. It was satisfying to hear them crunch again as I said and being able to See the lights starting to from the fluid that being said, I think science can be good sometimes but this case this is pure bull crap saying you don’t have a pain tolerance yet I have a pain tolerance. You don’t have strength yet. I can break a lot of things if I wanted to, but choose not to by hand! They say I wasn’t supposed to be good with leadership and yet I let the garbage get done anyway showing leadership skills. The only thing they got was my stubbornness (determination)!

I find the science can be good for most slings but when you’re trying to compare someone with an athlete who is genetically more tougher than the athlete, the athlete has to train stuff. I don’t have to train to do what I do, but I end up being stronger than them not as fast as them, but stronger than them that being said, yeah I kind of find the science can be full of crap, especially when they talk about ghosts and stuff with science saying there’s no such thing as ghost there’s no such thing as spirits. That’s a pilot crap right there again that is what I call junk science I mean I don’t mind my DNA test for learning about my ancestry to see what I have to do as far as my Piercings are concerned in my tattoos or concerned where to get them done and stuff that being said I don’t really give a rats ass about compare to athlete thinking that she would not be that strong. That being said I’m stronger than an athlete that being said I’ve done a lot more damage in my life physically not just with anger or anything, but I have done a lot like I said the hundred some glow stick I broke the simple fact that I was able to do that much damage without even getting angry!  That my friend is natural strength as I never went into a gym once in my life, except to do the splits or to do some kind of contortion that I had to do because I am a bit of an artist that being said, I did not do anything for building up strength or upgrading my body I just did it because I just needed to do my contortion. I remember when I was a kid that my mother had a picture of me in the laundry basket as a little kid and I had the pretzel possession and I was smiling like a little devil , That said flexibility is more important than anything else and that you need to be more able to stretch and stuff. It’s not just as fitness thing. It’s an art form to me and I find that I have to do this also to be in tune with my ancestors as my ancestors were very flexible and strong people, I already have the strong part down, but I just need to keep up with the flexibility!