August 9, 2024 p.m.

A Symbol of Fertility and RebirthIt is believed that by immersing oneself in water, one can be spiritually cleansed and purified. Similarly, many cultures also see water as a source of renewal and healing, believing it to have the power to cleanse away negative energies

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Found. Some books in the free little library near the pool I found this very interesting as I found so e books most were true crime and FBI thrillers and one erotic romance (that one I will surely be reading).  I like going to the little free libraries as I enjoy books sometime (most of the time) better then tv or movies!  The true crime book was about Ted Bundy, a real asshole who hurt and killed 3+ woman!  I found that when you hurt or kill woman that you are worse than covid19!  At least that virus has some integrity for not killing everyone but Ted bundy never had integrity!  I am must say that …..I know enough about serial killers and other (un)interesting people that make up society and sometimes the worst!  I found that serial killers like to use trauma as an excuse for their shit  behaviour!  While I actually have trauma and I would not hurt a fly unless it was a dear or horse fly as they like to bite!   I don’t like things that but!  But that is my stance on the whole situation.  Also I am going to start my arsenic club book soon!  It will be interesting to stray from erotic romance for a while and I pretty good with erotic romances as it is entertaining to read and write!  In be between love scene you are to pick the brains of the characters!  Which I love to do and there for make other characters!  I also like write eroticromance off the tasteful and senseual parts instead of making it raunchy I make it tasteful and readable for the 18+ aged people on the planet especially woman!

I am a woman but I am also gender fluid woman as well!  I have a different take on who I am I realized that when I was going through a meditation and mindfulness phase and realized that I did not feel comfortable identifying as just a woman….that I was gender fluid female too!  That means express as non-binary but I also know about the fact that at the end of the day I am biologically female!  Sometimes I have a girlie phase but the are few and far between!

In my idea the can be third genders and most of of third genders a most likely to be starseed and shaman!  I am both as for one I belong to the polarian star system, and I am third gender (gender fluid female) and a shaman, to be exact a baby shaman!  I study the shamanism of my ancestors the Siberian and Mongolian shamanism that was the original shamanism!    I was also on my first life on earth was an Inuit shaman during the ice age!  When people were making the decision to go across the land bridge to Canada and USA!  My ancestors stayed in Asia until the dawn of the three great religions! And moved west word to Europe and Russia!   There is a lot of folk lord between the altai mountains and the Pontic steppes that was were I was born was the Pontic steppes where the amazons came from and went easterward to Central Asia!  I found that when I had my DNA tested that I was of these ethnic groups the most east would be Tibet and Xinjiang!  It is quite interesting to tell you the truth!  I had a feeling that feel in those groups when I was younger!   I would read and trace my lineage through library books and then when the suspense was too much I got my spit test!  That was when I decided that shamanism is more important to me then other religions, though I respect other religions too!  I think that people should be more respectful to one another as this will help things be easier for everyone!

I am not able to play baseball this summer because of the simple fact that my ex-boyfriend would be there and he would cause a lot of problems for me!  Since being I that shit relationship I found that my anger was through the roof and I could not handle my self…..if people were thinking that I was not fair to the cheating bastard then they were wrong as I was forthcoming!  When he cheated I decided this was not fair  for me!  And hothead fact that I told him not to talk to me because I was pissed …..he still approached me with out caution which drove me in sane to be honest he will never learn!  I wish  that there was a yelp for boyfriends and girls friends so peop”e know who to date and who not to date….and this bucket of brains would be a no star review as I have met his exes and they had nothing nice to say about him!

“I have dated James before and he was a psychopath!”  When of his exes told he!  She was not happy that I was dating him!  But she was also looking out for my best interest by telling me the review of their relationship!  I must admit I will be saying the same about him like Laura did to me because he was an asshole!  I wouldn’t recommend dating him if I was a straight female or bi!  In fact this he was the reason I became a lesbian! I don’t like lying and cheating that guys do.

The idea of dating a guy would be worse then death I would not like it to be honest but that is my polarized thinking at it’s best!  I might for give James but I will not give him a good review of there was a yelp for lovers!  That being said!  Enough said….i can not play in the special Olympics for the simple reason is that he will drive me more insane then Ted bundy - remeber that jacksass!  I don’t want to be like that so I’d rather avoid James!

James was not a good person!  I think he was dark triad and over all an horrible human being. That I rather not deal with ever again!  I remember when someone told me about karma and asked me if I believe in karma ! Well I do because if you do stupid shit= you get stupid shit!

You  do good you get good it is as simple as that!  Most of the people who pissed me off are not having a good time in life and it is the universe balancing things out!  I find that it is a nature form of justice and a more reliable one than the courts!

The legal system can screw youiver more then one time in life and it did with me on many occasions!  As for the wrong doers in my life!  I call them out and I just for get them….as if I think of the asses and bad behaviour it will take up too many calories and I need my calories to stay good looking!